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December 14, 2017

It has been a while.

I moved to downtown Indianapolis over two years ago. And when we downsized our stuff Happy Apple took a back burner.

But I’ve missed it. It felt like a part of me that I let go and I wanted back.

But then some things happened and I didn’t really know how to start back in.

3 years ago my mom was diagnosed with Stage 2 Breast Cancer. And everything has changed forever.

I will never forget the day she told us.

My husband came home and told me to pack a bag we were going on a trip. It was a Friday night which happened to be Valentine’s day. And all I could think was we were getting ready to go on some great adventure.

Only to end up at my parent’s kitchen table hearing the bad news and the scariness of her finding the lump then waiting for results.

It was the start of an adventure just not one I dreamed of taking.

I spent a lot of the next week with a box of tissues within arms reach at all times. It’s amazing how the smallest things can trigger emotional waves so strong and unyielding.

I’m sorry to come back into this space with such HEAVY news. But it felt like the right thing to do.

I’m looking forward to writing here more. Happy Apple will change and be less of a lifestyle blog and more of a place where I can work through and process what has happened over the last 3 years and what is going to happen. Hopefully, this will provide some healing for me as I move forward but I also hope that if anyone else is out there facing this that I can also in some small way help them.

Ok, I think that’s all I can bring myself to share right now. I don’t know when I’ll be back for more. I’m trying to not force this and use it to help me rather than it being a case study of the soft places in my heart.

Thank you for bearing with me through the changes and adjustments.

Last Saturday was a great one. We stayed home and processed then we ended the night with Chinese takeout. It was just what we needed.

Please let me know in the comments if you have had to deal with something similar in your life. What did you find the most helpful in sorting through your feelings?

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